Mirror Lives

You ever look at yourself and know you’ll never admit the impossible? Those dirty little secrets you hole up in yourself, incubating them with all those grandiose fears you harbor, and you wear the sham of denial to prevent that particular volcano from erupting. Do you know what I’m talking about?

Maybe you practice blindness in attempts to banish it from being true, or rather drink yourself to oblivion so that the hazy fug of inebriation makes it seem slippery, and drops down the sinkhole for tomorrow morning to deal with. There’s a thousand million ways to hide, evade, or generally mutate those little issues, but as opposed to running, maybe it’s time to solider up and go ballistic on these mothers.

The truth of it all is that everyone out there(sooner or later) will see the crack in the lining of your face, the infinitesimal downcast frown that belies the agony your harboring. That tempest is billowing to an oblivion you try to avoid, yet the path of destruction leads right through everyone you know, and sooner or later their storm tracker is gonna find you pinging maniacally on their radar. Whether you fess up to it or not, that knowledge is floating free from the pandora of your being, and that will just aid the anxiety ridden sludge within and consume you further–because now your worrying about what everyone else is thinking (about what is wrong with you). It’s as long-winded as it sounds, as inane as the madness of trying to comprehend insanity, yet it’s out there, (you know it) but you lovingly avoid it.

Shame on you, but one of these days the mirror’s gonna reflect Dorian Grey back at you, and it’s gonna shock your world. Your ruinous visage will burst through the facade of your being, forcing you to notice it, demanding your wandering eyes to focus in on the implosion your causing. These words will fade long before that day happens, yet maybe they will burrow in the sediments and germinate into something akin to reason. Either way, drink it up, down, sideways, and let the blindfold take the wheel for however long you want--- it’s only your life your running from.